2010 is not a good year yeah? Sad to hear that you'two, friends have passed away, i'm sorry that i don't know how to comfort you'two. I only can say cheerup, which i know this words doesn't help anything. But, still, don't be sad, if your friend know that you're sad, he & she will be upset too. Let them rest in peace ba...
Alrights, today wake up, com awhile & back to sleep. Sleep until 11plus wake up meet girlf & went to mac eat. After eat, talk, 7/11 & headed home. These few days didn't really go out, go out awhile & came home. More 2 days to my pay, :) . & really gotta find a job soon! I'm broke, these is geh kiang want independent result.
So, people. Do consider twice, when you want to be independent. Independent is really hard, parents not giving you any allowence & you've to support yourself by your working pay. It's tough, but i never regret. Though it's tough, but i like to challenge it. I even told my father before, that i will work & support myself, & i really did it. Now, i asked my father, he will rather i work or study.He answered, work. I was quite surprise by his answer. I asked him why, & he said;"You can help to fen dang electrical all those fees." Does this means he is proud to have me this daughter? Idk...
I only know one thing, me & my father not close. Not even close like friends, whenever i got into trouble like police case, i didn't really want him to know it, so i will only call my mother up. Unless, it's really very serious until my father have to come. I did something really very regret in my life which is pg. Wondering what is pg? It's glue sniffing. I'm not v proud to say out, causez it's really embarrassing. But i don't mind typing out here, causez it's past & i've got my punishment. To those people who still pging out there, quit it. You will really regret it. Alot of people persuade me before, but i ignored them. & now, i'm regreting, but what's th point? Too late.Still remember that day, police handcuffed me. Seeing my father's sad face though he always put on a don't care don't care fake mask, i really feel so sorry to throw his face. My mother told me, when he rushing to Tang Tock Seng see me, he was crying. Reached Tts, he rush to toliet & wash up. On that day, i then realise it. My father cares me alot, is just tht he don't know how to express it. I actually quite angry that he didn't want to bail me out, until morning. He came & bail me out. Out of th police station, walkwalkwalk... He didn't say anything, he turn over & slap-ed me. First time, he slap me. I know, i really hurt him alot. I'm really a unfilial daughter. Trying to be a good daughter from that day on, but i always fail to be one. After bail, he still bring me to his fav food place & treat me eat. What a great father i've, th past of me, don't know how to treasure it. Pathetic.. But now, i will not go back anymore, i swear + promise. If i fail to do so, i will go be NUN*.
Look at my past, look down on me? Don't look down on me people! That's my past, i dare enough to say out causez i've changed! & I love my life now, :D
I Love Miss Yew & Pinky !♥ :D
Cheerup pleasez, seeing you sad yet i can't do anything, comfort you also like more comfort more jialat. I hate this feeling :(
